Gundam Seiyuu Part 10
I dropped down on the bed and let out a huge sigh, closing my eyes. I'd just gotten back from work and... and I was depressed. It was a week after Heero had done his last line for the series Gundam Wing. Odin Lowe was dead and the characters on the show had taken a very big blow. Not to mention that the effect of the revelation of Odin's death hadn't quite worn off on the cast yet. I couldn't help it. I still walked into work every day hoping to find out I had just dreamed it all and Heero was a still a part of the cast. I still hoped I'd see him in the recording room, script in hand and microphone ready... But his microphone space had been empty for a week and it hurt more every day.
Oh sure, I'd seen him in the last week. He was still a seiyuu and he still showed up at the studio to background voices for the other shows they were recording from time to time but when I saw him there wasn't even a wave or a smile. He would always locked eyes with me for a moment and nod a welcome. I always stood there in shock, surprised to see him, and didn't get any time to respond before he turned and walked away down the hall. I never did chase after him... after all what would I have said?
Hey, Heero, by the way I love you.
I forced out a laugh at that thought. I could just see the look of surprise and disbelief on his face. And then he'd probably glare at me, thinking I was still joking around as I always did. No, that situation could only end in embarrassment and disaster.
I sighed again and rolled over in the bed, staring across the room at the silent TV set. It was four o'clock. Gundam Wing would be starting soon. How fitting that today was the day that the rest of the world would find out the fate of Odin Lowe. Today was the day that the fans would go into an uproar and riot on the studio. Ok, so maybe it wouldn't be that extreme but I knew they were going to be mad.
Hesitantly I grabbed the remote and switched on the set. Just in time to see the end of the opening, lucky me. I watched in a vegetable state, just watching everything happen on the screen and the voices of my friends echoing out of the TV set. We really did sound like real people... because when Odin died we were all really upset... so that made it sound even more real.
~*~
On the screen Odin moved his gundam toward Zechs' base and frowned. The display screen in his gundam flipped on and Solo's face appeared.
"Odin? What are you doing you baka!"
Odin didn't respond, he only reached over and shut off the display screen, cutting off the connection. Then he clutched the control stick of his gundam tightly and walked straight into the base and the rain of fire coming from the enemy. The new weapons of the Emerald Empire were strong enough to rip right through the gundanium of his suit and it showed. Each time a shot hit him he shuddered and was pushed back slightly, but he didn't stop. He had to make it to the base. It was his mission.
Miki appeared on screen, looking worried. "What is he doing?! Odin you're going to get yourself killed!"
Triton's blank face appeared on his view screen. "He's finishing his mission." The brown haired boy replied in a flat voice.
"He'll be killed, I have to help him."
"No!"
Miki froze, surprised by the sudden burst of emotion from the normally emotionless pilot of 03. "But..."
"We can't stop him now. There is no point getting yourself killed. He's going to self destruct in the center of the base."
Solo's face appeared next to Triton's on the view screen. "He can't do that! We can't let him!"
The point of view switched to Li who sat silently in his gundam cockpit, his arms crossed and his eyes shadowed. "There is no other way to destroy the base, we don't have enough explosives to destroy it. This is the only way. We should respect him for his sacrifice."
"No!" Miki and Solo chorused.
Li moved his gundam to block them both from reaching the base. He aimed his beam cannon at both of them, emphasizing how serious he was.
Behind Li, Odin had finally reached the center of the base. He stopped his gundam and surveyed the area. Checking conditions he did a few quick calculations.
"An explosion from directly in the center should wipe out everything." He confirmed to himself. Odin nodded his resolve and leaned back in the pilots seat. Then, closing his eyes, he reached for the self-destruct button.
"Ninmu kanryo... mission completed."
He hit the button.
On the screen Wing Zero began to glow and then exploded into hundreds of flaming pieces which scattered everywhere. The base went up seconds later, scattering derby everywhere. Soldiers and mobile suits tried to flee but were caught in the blast and damaged quite beyond repair. The only one who were safely away from the blast were the other four gundams... but they still felt the ground shake.
Miki shuttered in his cockpit, clutching at his heart as he felt the emotions wash over him. Pain, anger, despair and resolve. The air all around him echoed loudly with the sound of Odin's heart beating. And then it grew fainter and slower... until it finally stopped. Miki's eyes shot open and he stared at the aftermath, tears growing in his eyes.
Solo's scream echoed across the area.
"NO!"
~*~
My own scream echoing in my ears hit home and I felt a lump grow in my throat. Damn it was eerie hearing that again while watching the show. And it kinda hurt. The episode ended on that 'happy' note and the credits rolled. I closed my eyes and rubbed them with my hands, I could just imagine the up roar all around the country right now. Odin Lowe was dead.
I flipped off the TV just in time to hear the phone ring. I walked numbly to the machine but didn't pick it up. Three guesses who it was, and the first two don't count. I stood by the answering machine and just listened, not willing to pick it up. Sure enough Hilde's voice soon came on.
"Duo! How could you?! How could you not tell us they killed off Heero?! He was one of my favorites! He's not dead right! He can't really be dead! You have to tell us what happened to him! It was only a dream right-"
Catherine's voice interrupted her. "Hilde, you're on an answering machine. He's not there."
"Duo! Pick up! I know you're off from work! You owe us an explanation!"
And then there was a beep and the message stopped. I just stood there, staring at the now blinking light. "And what exactly am I supposed to say to you?" I muttered quietly. "There was nothing I could do."
I turned and walked away from the machine and into Hilde's room. I sat down at her computer and turned it on, heading straight for the bookmarks to the various Gundam Wing yaoi sites. I paused as the first site I opened had large blinking red letters across the top, protesting Odin's death.
Wow, I didn't expect to see the webpages updated so quickly. I sighed softly and closed the internet. It would just be too depressing to try and find a fic now. So instead I opened a word document and stared at the blank screen.
A thought appeared in my mind and I began to type. I wasn't even really thinking as I began to type. All I knew was that I felt like I owed them. I owed all the fans a kind of apology and at the same time I wanted to write about my feelings for Heero.
So... so I started writing my first fanfiction.
TBC...
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