Silence Part 8
Solo
Hi Book! That's what I decided to name you. You're my journal. My name is Solo Yuy-Maxwell and my teacher this year is Mr. Long. I'm in first grade. Mr. Long told us all about journals last week. It's also called a diary. For this year we get to keep a journal for language class. Mr. Long says we have to write something every day and then he gets to read it every week and give a grade. I already know how to write and read because Daddy and Papa taught me.
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"Hi, Ms. Gilhoully. Do you need any help?"
"Oh, no, but thank you, Solo. Are your parents coming to Parents' Night tomorrow?"
"Daddy's coming but Papa can't."
"Oh, that's too bad. Is he working?"
"No, Papa's sleeping to get better."
"Is he sick?"
"No. A bad man shot him."
"Oh!"
"Daddy killed the man."
"...."
"But Papa was hurt, so he's sleeping while he gets better. Once he's okay, he'll wake up."
"Oh, Solo! When did this happen?"
"When I was four years old."
"And... your Daddy killed the bad man?"
"Yes. I didn't see because Papa put me behind a desk, but I saw Daddy jump over the counter and I heard the gun go off and Daddy was screaming and Hilde was screaming and there were police and EMTs. And Wufei came to look after me and Quatre helped Daddy and Trowa helped Hilde."
"Oh. Umm... Oh... I guess you must have been very frightened."
"Sort of. Daddy was really sad. He was crying. He never cried before, but he cries a lot now, because he misses Papa. But he'll come tomorrow night. He already promised and Daddy never lies."
"Well, that's wonderful, Solo. I look forward to meeting him."
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Hi Book! How are you this week? I'm fine. I got to visit Papa today! I took Sweetums and showed him to Papa. He gave Papa a kiss and Daddy laughed. I like when Daddy laughs. I wish Papa would laugh again. Daddy says he will when he wakes up.
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Hi Book. Mr. Long said I could write anything I want because nobody else will read it. He says that's why people keep a diary. Daddy was crying again last night. He was talking to Papa and crying. I wish Papa could wake up. I wish that man had never shot Papa. I'm not supposed to think about that. Miss Cecily says it was not my fault and I don't have to be sad. Miss Cecily is in a dream. I KNOW it was not my fault. Miss Cecily is dumb.
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"Wufei, why does Miss Cecily keep telling me it's not my fault that Papa got hurt? I know it's not my fault. It was the robber who shot him!"
"Idiot female... Of course it wasn't your fault! It's something she's trained to do, Solo. Sometimes when bad things happen to parents, kids get frightened and start believing that it was their fault."
"That's dumb!"
"True. It happens, though. Most kids don't have former Gundam pilots as parents. You're special, Solo. You understand these things. But Miss Cecily only knows how to talk to kids who don't understand. Got it?"
"Yeah. I mean, yes. What should I do? Should I tell Daddy?"
"Do you want to?"
"Um... No... I think he'll be sad."
"Very likely. Why don't we do this: I will talk to Miss Cecily and explain that you understand things quite well, and that her constant harping on the subject is upsetting you and that we would like her to knock it off. Does that sound good?"
"Yes! That sounds great! And Daddy doesn't have to be upset!"
"Excellent! We can talk to her tomorrow."
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Hi Book. I went to Quatre's house for the weekend. I got to ride horses and play with Denna and Sophia and Rashid let me help him clean his gun. I got to hold it when he was done. Guns are really heavy and you have to be really careful and never ever touch a gun without permission and always make sure an adult helps you with it. I want to be a Maguanac guard like Rashid when I grow up.
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Hi Book. I think Daddy is upset about something. He was talking to someone on the phone and he was crying and yelling and he said he wasn't crazy. Wufei came to dinner and they went in Daddy's workroom and talked after I went to bed. Wufei stayed over and made breakfast and then took me to school. He said Daddy didn't feel well.
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"Daddy..."
"Yeah, sweetie..?"
"May I sleep in your room tonight?"
"Ah... Yeah... What's the matter, sweetie?"
"I don't want you to be alone. Wufei said you were sick."
"Oh, yeah..?"
"He said he would stay, too. I just want to be with you."
"Thanks, sweetie..."
"Is it okay for Sweetums to sleep in here? He worries about you, too."
"Sure... He likes the headboard, doesn't he?"
"Thanks, Daddy. Now you go to sleep. I'll look out for you."
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Hi Book. Papa's eyes were open today. Daddy says that maybe he can see me so I showed him my diary and the ribbon that Sweetums won at the fair. Daddy asked me if I still want to visit Papa. He said if I'm scared I don't have to. I like to visit. Grownups are weird. I know Papa is just sleeping because he was hurt and it takes a long time to get better sometimes. I looked it up in the cyclopedia. It's called a coma. I told Daddy that it's okay. When Papa gets well he'll wake up. Daddy hugged me really tight.
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Hi Book. Daddy went to Quatre's house for the weekend. Wufei says he needs a little break from things. I don't know what things, but Wufei said it's grown-up stuff. Hilde and Roxy are staying with me. I like Roxy. He's funny. Hilde is okay too. We made cookies. I wish Wufei could stay with me. He stayed when Papa got hurt. I was scared until he came. Daddy had to go to the hospital with Papa and then he was sick for a long time and didn't go to work. Wufei stayed with us the whole time Daddy was sick. Wufei looks after us now. Wufei really likes us.
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Hi Book! Daddy brought me a whole bunch of toys! He said most of them were from Quatre so I have to write a thank you letter to him. Daddy was sad again when he came home. He went to his workroom. He's still there I think. I can smell incense.
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~It's okay, darling. Don't be afraid.~
"I'm not afraid, Papa. Daddy dreams about you all the time."
~He does, does he? And does he tell you about his dreams?~
"No. He says he has grown-up dreams. But that's okay. I can tell when he has a good dream. He smiles a lot and sings in the shower. Are you happy after he dreams of you?"
~I am very happy, darling.~
"That's good."
~You take care of him for me, please.~
"I always do that. I love you, Papa."
~And I love you very much, my darling.~
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Hi Book. I talked to Papa in a dream. He came to tell me to look after Daddy. Daddy fell down in the bathroom but Papa said he didn't hurt himself. But he cried when I told him about Papa and I called Wufei because I got scared. Trowa came and took care of Daddy. I wish I could grow up faster and take care of Daddy.
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Hi Book. Daddy is working tonight so I get to have pizza and ice cream for dinner and watch videos and sleep on the sofa. Loren is going to stay with me. Loren is afraid of Sweetums. He's never met a lizard before.
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"Is Daddy sick?"
"No, he's just very upset."
"Oh. Papa..?"
"Heero is the same. Don't worry about him. Duo is upset for other reasons. Solo, I want you to do your best to understand how much Duo misses Heero. It's very important that we help him now."
"Okay. What should I do?"
"By doing what you do best. By being a responsible and intelligent boy."
"That's all?"
"That's all. The fewer things weighing on your father's mind, the easier it will be on him. He needs to know that we're here when he needs us."
"Okay. Should I wake him up for dinner?"
"No. We will let him sleep for now. He's very tired. I will see that he eats something when he wakes."
"Will you stay here tonight? Please? Papa doesn't mind that you stay. He says you're a good person."
"I am touched... I have always tried to be a good person. Now, you go and clean up for dinner. And don't handle Sweetums after you wash your hands."
"Wufei..."
"Yes, Solo?"
"I love you."
"And I have great affection for you, Solo Yuy-Maxwell."
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Something is going on, Book. I don't know what it is, but everything feels weird. I feel like spiders are crawling on my skin. Daddy is in his workroom every night. Wufei is staying with us all the time now. I peeked into Daddy's room once and all the candles were lit and he had a power circle drawn. He only does that for really important stuff. I don't want to be scared but I think maybe I am.
TBC...
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