Fire in the Hole Part 11
Duo let himself into the room he shared with Heero as quietly as possible and laid his books on his bed.
"Why are you creeping around like that?" snorted Heero without looking up.
"I didn't want to disturb you," Duo muttered.
"Since when have you ever considered whether your presence bothered me?"
"Since the time you hit me and meant it."
Heero was on his feet in a flash and had Duo by the arm before the braided boy could react. He flinched, then froze, not looking at Heero.
"Are you gonna hit me again?" he whispered.
Heero glared at him. ::Dammit! I should slap the shit out of him!:: He wanted to; god how he wanted to slam his fist into that lovely face! He wanted to see Duo cry. He wanted him on his knees to plead and cry and promise never to make Heero mad again. He wanted to shake him and fling him against the wall and yell at him. He wanted him to hurt! The way he hurt every time he thought of Duo with Wufei...
Shit... ::What's wrong with me...?:: He closed his eyes and released Duo's arm. "No," he said tightly, "I'm not going to hit you, Duo." He turned away, back to his desk and his work.
Duo moved to sit on his bed. After a few minutes, he said softly, "Heero, I can't do this."
"Do what?"
"I can't play schoolboy with you."
Heero turned to look at him. Duo's gaze stayed on his clasped hands.
"I'm scared to talk, to move, to even breathe for fear of making you mad. And I'm scared of what you might do to me if I make you mad." He squeezed his eyes shut. "I used to love doing this, being with you, spending time with you, playing this game... but now that you hate me, all it does is make me nauseous. I can't eat, I can't sleep and I can barely concentrate on the mission for those old memories. I don't want to kill us both because I'm... because I'm frightened of you. You'll have to get one of the other guys. I just... I just can't do this..." A single tear trickled down his cheek. "I'm sorry, Heero..." He bolted from the room, leaving Heero staring at his empty bed.
After several minutes, Heero blinked and sat down heavily on his own bed. "I don't hate you, Duo," he whispered faintly. "I love you too much..."
TBC...
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