Author: Merula
Pairings: 2x1
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Cliché, lemony
Disclaimer: Gundam Wing is not mine.
Since Pixie asked, here is the MoR test fic I wrote first to see if we could even write Duo as seme. Usual warnings/disclaimers apply. It's cliché, lemony and kind of bad, but we did manage the 2x1 and the whole unwilling/willing thing.
Surrender Part 1
I stood in the doorway, watching Heero sleep. My duffles were packed and on my bed, the things too big to take with me tagged for a charity or one of the guys. I was ready to go. I couldn't stay here any longer. I had heard Relena talking to Dorothy a few days ago when I was on guard duty. How she and Heero were getting 'closer'.
I couldn't stay here and watch that happen. Couldn't watch the two of them get closer. I was going to leave before that ever happened.
But before I went I was going to take the one thing that I wanted the most. If I was going to run and hide for the rest of my life, it would be worth it.
I knew it wasn't sane, I knew what I was doing was the worst kind of betrayal. I knew that Heero would never, ever forgive me. That he would hunt me down and kill me for this. I stopped in the doorway of his room and looked in. Heero lay on his back, sprawled across his bed. His chest was bare, the sheet was wrapped around his waist, his dark hair tangled against his forehead. He was beautiful. Worth the price I would pay.
I was beyond caring about what would happen to me.
He might be hers, someday, but he would be mine first!
~*~
I slipped into his room, my stealth skills allowing me to move unnoticed next to the bed. I leaned down and broke a small capsule under Heero's nose.
It woke him. I hadn't anticipated that. The small crack of the capsule was enough to rouse him. He blinked blurry eyes at me. "Duo?" He inhaled, the drug entering his senses and his eyes widened. "What are you doing?"
"Sorry, Heero." I murmured to him as he struggled futilely against it's effects. I knew it wouldn't work. This was one of the sleepers that he wasn't immune to, I knew my partner very well. His eyes met mine, and I could see his confusion. "Just sleep." He held on for a few more breaths, his body trying to fight off the drug's effects, but he lost. A few more moments and he was out cold.
I went to the door and picked up the small bag I had left there. I didn't have a lot of time. Heero recovered fast. The drug was supposed to last two hours. Heero would recover in about 10 minutes.
I attached the chains to the headboard, and then the cuffs. They were specially made cuffs- heavy duty, as was the chain. The cuffs were designed to slip along the chain, to lengthen or shorten the restraint. I made them tight against the bed- any extra play at all and Heero would choke me. I just hoped they would hold, that I hadn't underestimated his strength. I knew that if Heero awoke and found himself bound and chained his first reaction would be to free himself any way that he could. I would have to keep him distracted. I glanced to the side table where the other capsule sat. If he tried to injure himself in escaping I would knock him out again and my mission would be a failure.
I placed his wrists in the cuffs and snapped them firmly closed. Another minute and I had his ankles secured. I reached down and picked up my final acquisition. The gag.
I didn't want to gag him. A part of me wanted to hear all the horrible names he would call me, wanted to hear him threaten my life. I would deserve every minute of it.
But, it might be easier if he was silent. Easier to imagine he was consenting to what I was doing to him.
And what if he didn't threaten- but pleaded? Begged me to let him go? I shivered and clutched the gag. I had to use it.
I leaned over him with the gag and wasn't surprised to see his eyelashes fluttering. He was waking up. "Duo?" He tugged on the restraints, all signs of sleep gone. "Duo? What's going on?" I could hear the faint hint of panic in his voice and I smiled faintly. I couldn't explain myself- couldn't beg him for forgiveness. I slid a hand beneath his head, raising it up enough so that I could get the gag on him. "Duo?!"
"Shh, Heero. It's just... a nightmare. It will be over soon." I gagged him quickly before he shrugged off the drugs effects completely, knowing I couldn't bear the sound of his voice saying my name again. I kissed his cheek gently above the leather strap. "I promise. Just this night and no more." I straddled his hips and leaned down to brush my mouth down his throat. "Just let me have this one night." He stopped tugging at the restraints, his eyes focusing on me. It made me uncomfortable to meet that gaze, so I turned my attention to his body.
I slid my hands down his chest, finding his nipples with my fingertips and then my tongue. Heero arched underneath me. When I glanced up, I saw his eyes were closed. He made no effort to get out of the restraints, didn't twist away from my touch. Had he figured it was useless, since I knew his strength as well as he did? Was he waiting for me to make a mistake? Maybe he was pretending I was someone else, her maybe, to get him through this. It made my heart ache to think it- but what did I expect?
I moved my mouth farther down, caressing his stomach with my lips as my hands unwound the sheet from his waist. I already knew that there would be nothing underneath. The night was hot, and Heero had never been a big fan of sleeping in his clothes. The sheet slid to the floor and I leaned back for a moment to gaze at my captive.
I had never had the chance to examine him like this, full on. Always it had been out of the corner of my eye, quick glances. I tried to burn the image of him, spread out on his bed against the white sheets.
"Beautiful," I murmured softly to him as I slid my hands down to rest on his thighs. I glanced up and met his eyes again. He was studying me intently, even as I looked at him. I reached up and in a quick movement, undid my hair, letting it fall around me. I needed a cover from that intent stare. Heero took a deep breath, almost startled. I knew he had never seen my hair down before. I only took it down to shower and braided it again right after.
I picked up a handful of my hair and slid it down his body, from neck to chest to stomach to thighs, gently teasing. Heero took several deep breaths, inhaling sharply through his nose, his eyes following the path of my hair. I eased back further on the bed and my hair caressed his inner thighs.
He was already hard. I had been afraid that he wouldn't respond to me at all, been afraid to look and see if I'd had any effect on him. My heart beat a bit faster and I bent down, letting my hair slide over his legs and stomach as I took him in my mouth. His hips tightened and lifted a bit off the bed as I licked and sucked and teased him. He grew harder still as I used my fingers to caress him as I worked- touching nipples, sac, thighs, gently and teasingly, hoping to drive him to greater heights.
He was moaning- I could hear it even through the gag. When I glanced up, his head was thrown back and the look on his face made the entire night worth it. If I had to run forever, the sight of Heero Yuy in ecstasy because of my touch made it more than worthwhile.
I reached up, my fingers closing over the small tube, finding it where I had left it next to his hip. I coated my fingers and slid the first one inside, easing it in slowly, then moving it in a rhythm. When I added the second, Heero's back arched up off the bed, a muffled scream reaching my ears. He pushed back against my fingers, his body begging me to fuck him with them.
Gods he was responsive! More than I ever in my wildest dreams imagined he would be. My third finger slid into him, stretching him, making him ready for me.
I let his cock slide out of my mouth as I removed my fingers from him. He made a faint whimpering sound, his eyes opening and then widening as he saw me coating myself with lube.
I had had to leave more play in the restraints binding his legs. He could've easily tried to close his thighs to me. He wouldn't have succeeded, but he could've made it harder for me. Instead he opened his legs wider, hips lifted slightly off the bed, and offered himself to me.
Ah gods. A rush of heat suffused my body at that sight. My breath caught in my throat. I positioned myself between his thighs and gently pushed in, his tight warmth surrounding me. I had to struggle not to come right then and there.
I leaned down over him, kissed his chest and neck and cheeks as I began to move. He pushed back against me and I heard the moans start up again.
He was mine, for now, and I used him thoroughly.
My hips pushed against him, setting our pace. I sent one hand down to caress his length trapped between us, caressing him in time to my thrusts.
It was over too soon. I felt him tighten around me even as my hand became covered with his completion. That sent me over the edge. I pushed deep, filling him with myself, claiming this part of him as mine.
I came back to myself, my cheek against his shoulder a few minutes later. I raised my head and saw that Heero was looking at me.
I didn't see anger in his eyes. Only puzzlement and something else that I didn't understand. I raised myself up on one elbow and kissed his forehead.
"It's almost over Heero," I murmured to him. I got up and fetched a washcloth. I cleaned him and then me, avoiding his eyes, feeling the beginnings of the guilt that I knew would haunt me forever. I had betrayed our friendship- his trust in me. He would never forgive me for this.
But- oh it had been worth it.
I picked up the other capsule that I had left on the bedside table and leaned over Heero with it. His eyes widened at the sight of it and he shook his head back and forth. I slipped my hand around his neck, sliding my fingers into the soft hairs at the nape.
"This is it, Heero. When you wake up you can just think of this as a nightmare. I'll be gone. I already packed my things. You can forget that this ever happened- marry your princess and settle down to a perfect life."
The anger appeared in his eyes then. That's what I knew was going to happen. What I had been expecting- but I still hadn't realized how much it would hurt, seeing him look at me like that.
"I knew you wouldn't want to just forget it." I took a deep breath. "I know you'll want to hunt me down and put a bullet in me for doing this to you. That would be justice, and when you do find me, I won't fight you." I closed my eyes for a moment. "I deserve to die for betraying your trust in me."
I held the capsule under his nose, waiting for him to take a breath. He held it for as long as he could, glaring at me all the while, but when he did inhale, I snapped the capsule quickly. His eyes closed and his body relaxed against the restraints. I opened them quickly, not bothering to remove them from the bed, simply freeing him. I got quickly off the bed, pulling on my jeans as fast as I could, tossing my shirt on quickly- I could button it on the way down the stairs. Shoes were waiting in the car. I bent to grab my duffle and felt a hand grab at my hair.
Shit.
A moment later I was flat against the wall, one of Heero's hands tight in my hair, the other wrapped around my throat. His blue eyes glittered at me under the fringe of his bangs.
"Talk," he growled at me. "Tell me why!"
"I wanted you," I closed my eyes, trying to block out his anger, "for so very long. I heard- Relena talking and I... I couldn't take it anymore."
"You knew I'd kill you for it."
"I don't care." He shook me slightly and I opened my eyes again.
"Don't care?"
"It was worth it."
"Worth dying for? Throwing away your life for a quick fuck?"
"No. For you." Heero snorted and his hand at my throat tightened. My air was being cut off. As he choked me, I reached up and touched his cheek. Gods, he was so beautiful....
~*~
I woke up, much to my surprise. I was gazing at a ceiling, not terribly interesting. I tried to sit up, but my arms wouldn't respond. I pulled and realized something was clasped around my wrists.
"Hn. Awake finally?" I turned my head. Heero was sitting at the edge of the bed, a faint smile on his lips. The leather strap I had gagged him with was in his hands. "I thought about using this on you as well, but I want to hear you scream my name. Hear you beg me to continue."
I blinked and realized that Heero had used my restraints to tie me down to his bed. He stood up, tossing the gag to the side.
"Turn about is fair play Duo. You used me, so now I get to use you." His smile widened. "When I finish, we are going to negotiate the terms of your surrender."
TBC...
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