aikonamika: lovechild verse, scary
I've discovered that it's really hard to write a drabble in a 'verse I'm still feeling my way in! Sorry this isn't very scary...
Love-child fic Halloween Drabble
I don't like to sleep. No, that's wrong. I like to sleep. I just don't like the dreaming part that goes with it. On the sweeper crews I could take a pill, secure in the knowledge that if something went wrong, I'd get shaken awake. Hard to do when you're on your own ship.
I always hope that I don't dream. Every night I hope that tonight will be that one night in a hundred when I manage to exhaust myself and sleep without dreaming.
Tonight isn't one of those nights.
I'm back in Scythe, my old friend, but it's not a comfort. On my main screen a huge chunk of spacecraft is falling towards Earth- and Wing is in front of it...
Not this dream. No... Please. Not this one. I know it's a dream! I want to wake up...
Wing's cannon shoots- saves the Earth- but it's too late for Wing and his pilot...
I watch, screaming as Wing plummets towards Earth, red hot and burning...
And I can't move. I can't help. I can't even follow him.
I wake up gasping for air, flipping on the lights, I shiver, trying to banish that image from my mind.
Heero didn't go down with Wing. He's in Sanq. Working for Relena. Alive.
Why do I keep having these dreams about him?
I know why.
I snag a book from the floor and start to read, trying to block out the dream, fix my mind on something else.
But one of the characters says something that resonates in my chest and I feel my fingers itching. So I grab my pen and find an empty space on the wall beside me.
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages.
The character "Rose Walker" in The Sandman #65
OWARI
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