lunargeography: 1x2, scary, 'reckless no one would miss me' Duo.
Halloween Drabble 32
"So, like to live dangerously, do you?" Heero's leaning against the doorway of my office. What the hell is he doing here? I look down at the paperwork in front of me- not even giving him the satisfaction. I'm not going to let the bastard rattle me.
"Back off, Yuy. I don't want to hear it."
"You damn near got yourself killed out there."
"Like you fucking care. Go away. I already heard this from Une and Wufei and Trowa. I don't need to hear it from you." One more lecture and I am going to kill someone.
"Lost the right to lecture you, did I?" Why is he still here?
"You know you did. So go away and leave me the fuck alone. I got the damn mission done- isn't that the important thing?" That's all he ever cared about.
"No." Heero closes the door. I guess he doesn't want the others hearing. "You shouldn't be out there trying to get yourself killed." How dare he talk to me like this? Like he still cares?
"Didn't we already establish that you lost the right to lecture me? Since when do you care what I do?"
"I always care."
That hurt. Why is he lying? Did Une promise him something good?
"Bullshit. You dumped me. Remember? Six months ago? You got back from that mission and moved out. Just don't feel the same way, and all that crap. So back off."
"I lied. I was trying to protect you."
Protect me? By dumping my ass? By ripping my damn heart out? "Right. Sure you were."
"Look at me Duo."
I glare up at him, ready to tell him to get the hell out of my office before I beat the crap out of him- and the words die on my tongue. I want to run- but the sight of him freezes me in my chair.
What the hell happened to him?
"Hell's the word," Heero smiles slightly, his red-tinged eyes glowing. What is he? "That mission changed me, Duo. I was afraid of what I might do- but now I'm more afraid of what you'll do. So I'm going to make sure you can't try to hurt yourself again."
What is he going to do? I open my mouth to ask, but Heero shakes his head and I find that the words won't come. "I'm going to make sure you're safe. I've watched you throw yourself into one bad situation after another. I thought I was keeping you safe by staying away- but I was wrong."
Wrong? How? My mind is in a whirl, it's getting hard to think. Was I going to pass out from shock? Or had he done something to me?
"Come here, Duo."
Oh hell no, I think, but my body rises from my chair without my permission. I try to force myself back down in my chair, but I can't. Imprisoned inside my own body, all I can do is watch.
Heero pulls me close, holding me tightly. His embrace is something that I missed, longed for, dreamed of- and I can't return it even if I wanted to at this moment- which I know I don't. My arms move of their own accord to hold Heero, my lips open under his, but not because I moved them. I fight to free myself, but I can't even twitch a muscle.
Panic rises up inside me, clearing the confusion inside my head for a moment. He isn't going to keep me this way, is he? His prisoner?
"It won't be so bad," he says in my ear and I realize for the first time that he's been responding to my thoughts. He's in my head...
"Yes." His mouth brushes over the wetness at the corner of my eye. "I know it seems bad now Duo, but it won't be. I just- I need you, Duo. I can't stand by and watch you do this anymore. This is the only way I can be sure that you won't hurt yourself again."
I'll be good, I think hard at him, trying to hold my thoughts together. I will. I won't be reckless anymore.
"I know you won't." He says and holds me tighter still. "I'm going to keep you safe forever..."
No, I think before my thoughts scatter for the last time.
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