Author: hostilecrayon
Pairing: 1+2, eventual 1=2
Rating: PG-13 for swearing
Warnings: Angst! Swearing, OMG HOPE
Disclaimer: I live with my parents and they pay for me to go to college. I'd like to know where you think I got the money to buy Gundam Wing.
Notes: This is a little different interpretation of water. I'm not using it in a physical sense. Instead, I'm using the Pagan concept of the water element, in which it is strong emotion, among other things. Part VII of the Growing Up Mini-Series. Written for the Water challenge at the gw500 LJ community and the New Beginnings challenge at the 1=2 fans LJ community. Heero's POV. This is not the last installment.
Somewhere
I stood, calmly waiting for a response that never came. My nerves were shot, and it was all I could do to keep the collected appearance I'd managed. Nothing would get accomplished if I broke down, and I needed an answer.
He was back to fiddling around with the tea cups, and I knew if I wasn't forward with him, we'd dance around the issue for the rest of the day. I decided to be firm. "Duo."
Reluctantly, he handed me my tea, officially removing his distraction. He stared at his cup, though I wasn't quite sure why he has made himself one in the first place, as Duo never did like tea. He refused to look at me, but I knew I had his attention.
"Tell me what you want. As much as I'd like to be able to, I can't read your mind."
He sipped at his tea. "I don't know," he mumbled.
"Look, I don't know what's going on anymore. First you tell me you don't love me, and then you show up out of the blue-"
"I lied, okay? I fucking lied!"
I think the world stopped for a moment.
"You- You- What?" I blinked at him. Duo doesn't lie. Why would he...
"You hurt me, okay? I was hurt, and I just let my damn mouth run. It was the only thing I could think of to hurt you! I've always..." He tapered off towards the end and turned away, but I was pretty sure I knew what he was going to say. I've always loved you.
"I... I'm sorry... I didn't mean-"
"Give me a break, Heero. You didn't mean to hurt me? What did you think; I'd rejoice that you were leaving me? You fucking broke my heart and you didn't even think twice about it!"
"No, that's not-"
"Yes, it was what happened. And where were you? Where were you when I was falling apart? Where were you when I..." He paused, his eyes lingering on the box of tea sitting on the counter. I couldn't help but feel that help some significance, but I had no idea what it was.
"When you burnt our house down?" His eyes darted to mine for a moment before they rested on the counter again.
"So you knew, then?"
"Wufei told me."
"Figures."
I was starting to shake. Duo always was a ball of emotion, and with his anger and pain directed at me, my calm façade couldn't last long. "So... where do we go from here?"
"I don't know, Heero. I just don't know. I mean, should we even do this again? Is there even a point?" He looked so lost; I had to keep myself from reaching out to him. Not even a year had dulled what I felt for him. I was willing to try anything.
"I like to think so." It was just a quiet statement, but he's always known me best, and as my hands started to shake, he looked up at me.
"We can't just start off where we left off, you know."
"I know." I looked him in the eye, resolving myself. "But we can start somewhere."
"Yeah, we can." He moved towards me hesitantly, and I met him halfway before he changed his mind.
We held each other for what felt like an eternity, and just feeling him against me again made me ache with longing even as it reassured me. I needed Duo, and this time, I wouldn't let him go.
As we reluctantly pulled apart, I said, "So what are you doing tomorrow? Say around seven?"
"Uh, nothing, I guess. Why?"
"Well, Duo Maxwell, since we're starting over, I'd like to take you out on our first date. Nothing too intimate, maybe dinner with some of my friends at Kebo's so we could get to know each other better?"
He laughed, and it was a beautiful sound. I hadn't realized how much I'd missed it. "You hang out at Kebo's? I would have never thought... well, why not? I look forward to it, Heero Yuy."
"Great! I'll pick you up at six-thirty then."
As I headed to my car, the wind whipping through my hair, I smiled.
OWARI
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