Secrets and Lies Arc 2 Part 4
The click of the phone touching the desk woke up Heero from his restless sleep. The Prussian eyes that focused on Trowa held so much pain... It was as if something vital had been shattered within Heero beyond repair. He had never seen his friend in so much pain before and he had been there at Sasame's birth. He didn't know why Heero had chosen him, but he had accepted his responsibility with determination. As Heero's only confidant, he had been required to keep yet another secret from his love. But it had never interfered in his and Quatre's relationship or any of his friendships with the other G-boys until today. But he couldn't regret his decision, without his help during the war, he had no doubt the silent Japanese boy would have fallen apart. Heero was more fragile then any of them had ever imagined. He hadn't realized how fragile until that first time Heero had come to him asking for his help.
He had said he was going to die and wanted Trowa to make sure his unborn child wouldn't fall into the doctors unethical hands and have to live a life like his. He wanted Trowa to ensure his child would grow up knowing Duo-his other father. Trowa had been shocked at first. Heero's story had sounded so unbelievable but he couldn't turn his back on his friend. Truthfully seeing the baby rip its way out of Heero's body had sickened him so much he had passed out. So it was a good thing that Heero had survived to make sure J couldn't run off with his kid. He never did understand how Heero had healed so quickly and without scar but he didn't really want to know.
That had been the last time Trowa had seen Sasame until today. After the war, Heero had disappeared twice. And he hadn't known anymore then the rest of them where Heero was, except for the occasional desperate phone call in the middle of the night and a tearful voice demanding to know if Duo was doing okay. But he had never seen Heero cry, not till tonight. Heero was lucky that he had been the one to check on the seemingly unrelated lead last night. None of the other guys would have understood. He hadn't even spoken when the door had opened he hadn't had the chance to do so. Heero had taken one look at him and started crying silently. Beautifully as tears trailed down his face leaving crystalline paths.
"Please." The broken whisper had shocked Trowa the most. Heero begging? He knew then that something must have happened so instead of dragging him off or calling Duo, he had simply stayed and talked. Hours were spent trying to convince Heero that Duo couldn't really mean those things he had said, that he didn't mean those hateful words. But Heero was stubborn after all this time he really believed there was no longer a chance for him and Duo. In the end, Trowa found he was the one who relented, agreeing to be the one to take Sasame to his other father.
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Looking at Trowa's silent visage, Heero bit his lip and glanced at the clock. It was time. Getting up, he handed Trowa a small-repacked bag. It had various photos that Duo might want to see and a few of Sasame's necessities. Heading to the other room he got ready to wake Sasame and hand him over to Trowa. Tears pricked his eyes. How could he just hand over the most precious part of his life? But he couldn't go. He just couldn't face Duo again. He knew Duo couldn't still love him, not after what he said. He was just searching for Heero now because he remembered and felt guilty about the past. Heero wasn't about to go and break what was left of his heart when the guilt wore off and Duo left him.
TBC...
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